Closing my 34th: Returned, Rooted & Ready — A Soular Return Reflection

 

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This closing chapter of my thirty-fourth year has asked me to slow down long enough to truly arrive. Not to rush toward what’s next, but to honor what has already shaped me. This year became an invitation to presence — the kind that listens, notices, and stays. In choosing to be fully here, I experienced a depth of connection and clarity that could not have been reached any other way.
One of the most meaningful shifts came through presence itself — how it transformed the way I show up in my life and in motherhood. When I allowed myself to be grounded rather than stretched thin, trust grew naturally. Love expanded quietly. I was reminded that the most powerful moments are often the simplest ones, built through consistency and care rather than effort alone.
This year also carried its share of weight. Lessons in trust, stability, patience, and resilience revealed themselves through finances, health, leadership, and the layered reality of single motherhood. There were moments when the ground felt uncertain, when I had to become my own support system. Still, each challenge refined my ability to lead with integrity, discernment, and self-respect.
Not every connection was meant to come forward with me. Some relationships revealed their limits — a lack of reciprocity, respect, or sturdiness. Letting go required honesty, but it also brought relief. I learned that release does not equal failure; it is often a necessary act of self-honor that clears space for alignment.
Joy, too, returned this year — not by accident, but through devotion. Recommitting to discipline in my body became a gateway back to laughter, clarity, and mental steadiness. Through movement and routine, I reconnected with a sense of lightness that reminded me joy can be cultivated, not chased.
As I step into my thirty-fifth year, I do so rooted and receptive. I carry forward wisdom without hardness, boundaries without guilt, and hope without urgency. This next chapter begins not from striving, but from a grounded knowing that everything I have lived has prepared me to meet what’s ahead with grace, presence, and trust.

[Returned, Rooted and Ready: a Soular Return Reflection- closing my 34th video & monologue]

“Returned, Rooted & Ready — A Soular Return Reflection”